I hate my family, and this isn't some ****** story?

Well, it's a very complicated situation, and to be honest, I think you need to talk to someone (teacher, doctor, friend of the family) who can give you support through this. Regarding the first part...your Mom should not be using violence against you. It's not appropriate, and I don't agree with that. But make sure that you don't retaliate physically, and definitely DO NOT end your life. There is always hope to get out of this situation. If it gets really bad, then you should leave and try and stay with a family member, as your mother isn't caring for you properly. If she isn't buying food, or making you healthy food, then she is neglecting some of the duties that she should be doing, which isn't setting a good example for you. The same thing with going out and drinking most nights...it's not a good example for her kids. I really think that you need an adult to support you, and that you should try and leave (although you are a minor in the US, but I'm guessing you're in the UK anyway from the words you use, so you can legally leave home). Try and find a job so that you can support yourself as well.